OOOOOOOOOkay. Maybe I said, "kicking it's ass" a bit too quickly. So, today is one of the more difficult days yet. That seems to be the pattern...a couple good days, a bad one...a couple good days, a bad one.
Experiencing some food stuck in my throat today...no vomit though (well not me. The child threw up on me). Feeling physically really pretty good. Probably due to the coffee I got this morning. It was sugar free but this diet is strictly caffiene free, and so flubbed up there. Also I've messed up here and there on food intake. Ate a bit of rice...helped the kids I nanny make cookies for their dad's birthday and took a taste. Maybe not such a big deal physically, but it's affecting my mental state. In those moments I feel failure and lack of self control.
But do you know what is really bothering me? I'm becoming obsessed thinking about the food restrictions...and in turn, I'm becoming obsessed thinking about myself. I will not complete this diet only to become a healthy narcissist. I can't spell today either. I need more than 3 hrs of sleep for a 12 hr work day...maybe that's the problem.
I will close this blog before I become a health freak. We'll see how the next couple days go.
So it'll be fine but I've got to get my thoughts together and just stop thinking!
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