The thing about it is...screwing this up now would be like running a marathon only to crash one foot from the finish line. And I am really screwing this all up. I was SO strong for so long on it i don't know what's wrong.
Actually I do. I think I'm tired. I think I have the fever the small children gave me (with blisters on my mouth, hands and feet soon if I follow in their footsteps, so to speak). And having run out of money after a hefty move and new apartment expenses (I just HAD to have that slip cover for the couch) I find myself out of finances for groceries.
So here I am at work scrounging for fresh meat (sounds so violent) in their refridgerator and trying to find a way to eat zucchini in a new and intresting manner. And it's just not going well.
Confession time.
1. I have not taken my supplements today because they aren't going down my throat
2. Had a cookie. BAD.
3. Getting by on "meat" but it's actually marinated in all sorts of sugary somethings and...
4. Had a small piece of dark chocolate
I can't tell if my headache and exhaustion is from Candida, or if I've caught the sickness the kids have or if I'm just tired but no matter what, I'm making bad choices and trying to find a way to stop.
So if you know me, and you read this...please send me a message that isn't so much filled with "go team" type phrasing...but rather...tell me how it is and hold me accountable to my health goal!
la
ReplyDeleteJenni, I've loved reading your blog. You're a great writer! I FEEL your pain...Being around kids and their cookies & grilled cheese sandwiches makes it even more of a challenge, for sure. You've made so many positive changes already, press on! Just getting educated with all this is huge in itself. A couple of things that I do, that are helpful are: make a wholesome, hearty pot of soup once a week. Put the leftovers in containers & freeze for quick nutritious heat and eat meals. I carry a ziplock baggie of mixed nuts everywhere I go & always have a jug of water in my car with me. Drink kombucha for the right probiotics & for energy:)some other food ideas: tuna & lettuce wraps, hummus & salsa with flax seed chips. I'm sure you're devouring info. & have some good ideas. It's hard to not go for the "feel good" foods that we get use to turning to. You are on the road to wellness! I'm praying for you,
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Roxanne I was just telling my mom tonight how great these ideas were....totally going to try them...thank you SO much for your support!
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